Well. it's update time again! I feel like lately that's all I've been writing on here! Hopefully that will soon change.
Let's see....where to start......
Let's start with Zack.....you all know him right? He's my husband. I don't think I've talked about him in any of my posts but I DO have a husband. ;)
He has finally got himself a motorcycle. And I have had more panic attacks in the past couple months than I have my whole life! I totally trust him and it's not that I don't think he knows what he's doing. It just scares the crap out of me! I have probably imagined every possible way for him to wreck on that bike. I have no idea what we would do if something happened to him.
We've been together for almost 11 years and to be completely honest, for the majority of that time I have taken him for granted. Our marriage has been so close to being over SEVERAL times. I won't go in to a whole lot of detail but there was arguing, disrespect, and just flat out rudeness everyday for as long as I can remember. And about 60% of it was me. I'm not proud to admit it but I was not the easiest person to live with (not that he didn't do his share of it). Over the past couple months our marriage has been better than it's ever been. It's still not perfect but it's WAY better than it has been for the past 10 years!
Now on to Connor.....He will be turning the big 10 years old next week! We went to check out his new school (building) for next year. He will be in 5th grade! I was walking through the halls and all of a sudden I couldn't breathe! There were lockers! When did he get old enough to have a locker??? Then we went to meet his homeroom teacher.....HOMEROOM!!!!!! That means he will be switching classes/teachers for every subject! Um....that's not suppose to happen until high school, or at least middle school....I'm not ready for this! So then we are walking down the hall and a girl......A GIRL......stops to talk to him. DEFINITELY not ready for that! He is just growing up too fast!
His dad has moved back into town and Connor is loving it!
He has really been doing very well. His behavior is getting better. This past week it's been like having a totally different kid! He still has his moments (some days he has several moments). But I can see him trying to do better. We have even had a few peaceful days at our house which use to be very rare!
Now my Lilly girl.....She is like a teenager in a 7 year old's body! If her attitude gets any worse she could possibly end up worse than I was as a teenager! YIKES! I always knew God would give me a child just like me. But I never thought it would be my sweet Lilly! But even the negative can not overshadow her positive! She is doing very well in school. And her ballet is incredible to watch! I am just so proud of her. This is her first year in ballet and I can tell this is what she was meant to do. I love watching her. When she's in class it's like nothing else matters. She's so serious and focused. She has her first recital coming up in two weeks! Plus she got a part in the Nutcracker! Very exciting!
Kerri, Kerri, Kerri......If you were to come to my house after reading all my previous posts about her, you would think I was a crazy person! I have no explanation for it but this child is not the same person she was the past couple years. She has improved so much. I honestly think she was at a very critical point in her development when we intervened. I believe she could have gone a very different way had we not done everything we did to help her. I can't even imagine what she would be like right now had we listened to some of the advise and just "let her be". Don't get me wrong, she still has her quirks, but nothing worrisome.
She is also taking ballet. Not sure we will keep her in next year or not yet. It can be pretty pricey and she's not as into it as Lilly (yet). We are planning on letting her explore different things first to see what she really enjoys. Right now she is playing t-ball. She's so cute. She's never played baseball in her life so it took a little getting use to. In the Fall she will be playing soccer. She's super excited about that. She also has her ballet recital in two weeks. I pray that she does well as far as being backstage with out me. I'm a little nervous about that.
Miss Bella.....I have to say, she may possibly be the cutest baby I've ever seen in my entire life! She is learning so much everyday. Every time she talks it's seems like a new word comes out of her mouth! I am so blessed to get to stay at home with her (and the other kids) and watch her learn and grow each day. She is the sweetest and most affectionate baby ever! She absolutely LOVES to give hugs and kisses and cuddle! She does have a mean streak though.....she's a biter! It's so hard to get on to her though!!
So I think that's pretty much it for the most part. I have to say my life is not perfect and I know it never will be, but this has to be as close as it gets! I am the happiest I've ever been!
